Do you ever get that feeling where as much as you don't understand something you can't get it off your mind? I mean i don't understand why or what was to come of my ex contacting me but now that he has the conversation is just left hanging. Maybe it would have been better if i didn't reply, but wouldn't that have been rude? As much as I'm okay with it i have this lingering feeling that just wants to prove something to myself. I want to be the one that is in control, the one who comes across strong and independent and okay. Thats not unreasonable right? But he is and always will be that one person that can make me crumble. I am determined to not let that happen this time because I'm a different person and have moved on but just this time i want the control. Ive got this feeling deep in my gut though, that its just not going to turn out like that.
Sihouetteofalady
