Believe.

Most people are stronger than they know they just forget to believe in it sometimes . .

If you dream it, and truly believe it, you can achieve it.

That Inner Struggle.

I hate those days when you have that ache inside of you that no matter what you try it just won't go away. Its one of those days you just want to stay rugged up in bed and hide away from the world. I think I've finally realised what I have to do though. I think I'm going to have to face my fears and say what I'm feeling. I mean it could mean I'm worse off for a while but I'm hoping it will mean I'm better off in the end. But its getting outside my comfort zone that scares me. I mean will it worth it after? 

That One Person Who Can Make Me Crumble.

Do you ever get that feeling where as much as you don't understand something you can't get it off your mind? I mean i don't understand why or what was to come of my ex contacting me but now that he has the conversation is just left hanging. Maybe it would have been better if i didn't reply, but wouldn't that have been rude? As much as I'm okay with it i have this lingering feeling that just wants to prove something to myself. I want to be the one that is in control, the one who comes across strong and independent and okay. Thats not unreasonable right? But he is and always will be that one person that can make me crumble. I am determined to not let that happen this time because I'm a different person and have moved on but just this time i want the control. Ive got this feeling deep in my gut though, that its just not going to turn out like that. 

Once Again.

I always find that as soon as I forget I am reminded. As soon as your ok something makes you upset. And as soon as you move on the past pulls itself to the surface once again. Ill never understand why the universe won't let you forget. I don't believe in meant to be's or everything happening for a reason but sometimes i think the things that don't leave your life are the things your meant to have. I hate this word but I can never seem to stop saying it, WHY? Why now? Why me? These are questions I know ill never get an answer for but you either have to fight it or go with it and thats the decision I can't make.