Can It Last Forever?

Do you ever find yourself in a phrase of your life where everything seems to be going right, so right that it seems too good to be true? I constantly find myself in these phases, although usually it isn't until something shocks me that I realise it simply was too good for too long. 

Things are not meant to be perfect. As Harlan Ellison says "For without pain, there can be no pleasure. Without sadness, there can be no happiness. Without misery there can be no beauty." Or as the talented Passenger says "only need the light when it's burning low, Only miss the sun when it starts to snow, Only know you love her when you let her go, Only know you've been high when you're feeling low, Only hate the road when you’re missin' home."

Although we try to stay away from pain and sadness and live in infinite happiness, it simply is not possible. The most important thing is to remember that you are simply feeling the way you are because out there somewhere, something will show you a feeling that directly contrasts the one you feel now, and that is why it is worth it. 

When i'm down there is one word that can bring me back to life. Believe. Believe in your inner strength, believe in a better world, and believe in the life you are given. 

That Inner Struggle.

I hate those days when you have that ache inside of you that no matter what you try it just won't go away. Its one of those days you just want to stay rugged up in bed and hide away from the world. I think I've finally realised what I have to do though. I think I'm going to have to face my fears and say what I'm feeling. I mean it could mean I'm worse off for a while but I'm hoping it will mean I'm better off in the end. But its getting outside my comfort zone that scares me. I mean will it worth it after? 

The Memory Of Pain.

Have you ever remembered the pain you've experienced in the past so clearly that even the slightest inkling of having to go through anything like that again or feel anything even near as hurtful as that again makes you cry like your experiencing it for the very first time?

That One Person Who Can Make Me Crumble.

Do you ever get that feeling where as much as you don't understand something you can't get it off your mind? I mean i don't understand why or what was to come of my ex contacting me but now that he has the conversation is just left hanging. Maybe it would have been better if i didn't reply, but wouldn't that have been rude? As much as I'm okay with it i have this lingering feeling that just wants to prove something to myself. I want to be the one that is in control, the one who comes across strong and independent and okay. Thats not unreasonable right? But he is and always will be that one person that can make me crumble. I am determined to not let that happen this time because I'm a different person and have moved on but just this time i want the control. Ive got this feeling deep in my gut though, that its just not going to turn out like that.